All the girlie things

I love the wedding boards, they provide entertainment and advice, but sometimes they point out the rather obvious differences between a typical bride and me. Most of this has to do with regards to typical female loves, shopping, jewelry, make-up, clothes, etc. I’m not the biggest fan of shopping, I only recently started wearing jewelry and that’s mostly due to Tim, and make-up is still not a regular thing though I wear it more often now due to the business casual dress code at work. So when I see all these women talking about being so excited for their fitting or their hair trial or figuring out their make-up, it makes me realizes that not only do I not look forward to most of this stuff but I’m sort of dreading it. My first dress fitting is next week and I’m totally scared. Scared it won’t fit or won’t be like I remembered. I know things will turn out fine but I’m not bursting with excitement over putting the dress on, I’m the complete opposite. A few days after my fitting is my hair trial which made me realize I should probably figure out what I want done with my hair. I have a basic idea of what I’d like but have no idea if it will actually look good or work with my hair. I just feel like a visitor on an alien planet. These things aren’t exciting to me, the sort of scare and overwhelm me because I’m not a girlie girl and weddings are sort of the biggest girlie moment of a woman’s life.

I recently found a sundress to change into after the ceremony which actually closely resembles my original casual wedding dress idea I had a few months ago. We didn’t stick to the casual/informal dress idea for very long because I couldn’t find anything like this back in February and didn’t want to chance them not coming out and me stuck with no wedding dress (as it’s rather late in the game to order a formal wedding dress). So we went with the more formal approach and after showing Tim the reception dress and telling him this was my original idea for the wedding dress, he likes the more formal route we are going. I enjoy it too because I do love my dress (though man it’s gonna be hot, hence the second dress) but by opting to go the more formal route it has added more girlie things to the list. Had I gone with the sundress option there would be no fittings and alterations and no hair trials as I would have had my sister do my hair but now with the more formal feel, I think it would look better overall to have a more formal hairstyle. I wouldn’t have to be as dressy and girlie. But for as much as I’ve kicked and screamed in the past about dressing up, once I do, I actually enjoy it. I just have to remember it’s worth all the work and it won’t be as horrible or torturous as I imagine.

I don’t, however, think I’ll be bouncing with excitement and gushing on the boards about my fittings and hair trials . . . .